You Got This

"You got this!!" I hear that a lot. What I want to hear is "I got you." People used to always tell me to ask for help, and they would be there, so I swallowed my pride and started to ask for help, but no one came. I started begging and no one came, instead those same people that said just ask for help started to say "You got this!!"

The sad truth is when you have a child with special needs your world often shrinks more and more as they get older. Well, that has been my experience, anyway. What I started to realize is that no one was coming, and if I wanted to survive I needed to become healthier and stronger. I needed to find someone that I could talk to, and someone that could help me organize my thoughts, so I can move forward. As parents of children with special needs we often have so many things running through our minds that it is difficult to prioritize and organize those chaotic thoughts.

I don't always want to eat healthy or workout, but I notice a huge difference in my mood, energy, anxiety, and depression when I don't. Currently, I don't get to take a break, but I get to decide how I approach each day. Do I allow the loneliness to swallow me up, or do I move forward? I choose to move forward. I choose to fight for me and Josh, because I am the only one that can. I want to be happy and if I don't take care of me I will never find that happiness I seek. I choose to be kind and to help others, because I don't ever want anyone else to feel this alone. I know if I keep pushing forward I will be stronger, happier, healthier, a better mom, and I will eventually create the support that I need.

Days when I'm running on no sleep, my anxiety is literally causing heart palpitations, and the tears won’t stop flowing I still get off my ass and fight for me. It's the only way to make tomorrow better than today. Always fight for you!!

Life Coaching has been a benefit. Through this journey I have been able to set small goals that continue to move me forward. It has been life changing. As another special needs mom and a Certified Life Coach please know I GOT YOU!!

Michelle Finn, RYT200 Certified Health and Life Coach